This has been a long time coming. I’m sad but mostly, I’m relieved. I can live my life the way I’ve felt compelled to live it. I can raise my children to be open minded, loving, kind spirits, and global citizens. I can be myself, all the time, without fear or criticism. I’ve had to give up on feeding what I thought was the most important part of my life. By not feeding that relationship anymore I’ll have the energy and the drive to continue living, and loving, and growing. I am sad. I know that I will have some hard days ahead. But I know, without a shadow of a doubt, that my children and I will be infinitely better off. I’m breathing. These shaky unsteady breaths are breaths nonetheless and that means I’m still alive and can continue on. I’ve finally realized that I do love myself, and that I’m worthy of that love, and that I should have been loving myself this much all along, because no one else ever will.
I hope you love yourself. Don’t let someone else’s feelings for you overshadow your feelings for yourself.