Loneliness is a hunger for my true nature. I stopped looking for people to fill this.
I don’t have much to say about this quote. It’s true, and until you hold that truth within yourself, you will always feel that gnawing void. Some people fill it with things other than people, some use drugs, or alcohol, or food, or entertainment.
If anything, I use “busy-ness”. But, I try to let go of that need to stay busy. When I feel myself getting frustrated or bored and longing for something to do, something to change, I try and make myself pause and meditate on what it is I really NEED from and for myself. And usually, I am avoiding taking care of myself in some way. Like today, when I finally broke down and got a dentist appointment because I cracked a tooth from grinding my teeth at night. Because I haven’t been managing my stress as I should. But today, I acknowledged those things and began to take care of them. I am more myself today than I was yesterday.
A quote from Shakespeare has been stuck in my head since last night, “if music be the food of love, play on.” I saw Elton John last night. Music is so important to me. It seems weird to me that other people don’t get into it like I do. It isn’t so much that I love knowing every detail about the artist themself and all the details of the albums, but some songs just stick with me. There are certain songs that harmonize with my soul and make me feel validated in my existence. It’s not necessarily the words, although sometimes the lyrics are deeply meaningful, but the music itself, and the individual instruments melding together to create this sensorial experience gives me peace and inner harmony.
As long as I have music, I will never be lonely. It is my dearest companion. (Welllll, books, too.) That also reminds me of one of my favorite Hunter S. Thompson quotes:
“Music has always been a matter of Energy to me, a question of Fuel. Sentimental people call it Inspiration, but what they really mean is Fuel. I have always needed Fuel. I am a serious consumer. On some nights I still believe that a car with the gas needle on empty can run about fifty more miles if you have the right music very loud on the radio.”
I hope you have some high octane Fuel for your soul.