To learn to see, to learn to hear, you must do this — go into the wilderness alone.

Don Jose Matsuwa (Thursday, March 28, 2019)


Logically considered, Zen may be full of contradictions and repetitions. But as it stands above all things, it goes serenely on its own way.

-D. T Suzuki (Wednesday, March 27, 2019)


Every day I discover more and more beautiful things. It’s enough to drive one mad. I have such a desire to do everything, my head is bursting.

-Claude Monet (Tuesday, March 26, 2019)


This week has been one of those intense weeks where I just can’t say much publicly about what I am thinking of and dealing with. I have to make some decisions fairly soon about some pretty major things, and I’ve had to go into my shell a bit to cope with them. I’m not unhappy, really pretty much the opposite. And, I’ve been taking such good care of myself, that I’m actually really pretty pleased with myself for being a responsible adult towards my own being, rather than just for the kids. As someone who has long given far too much and done too little to care for this body and person, it is really a big deal that I’ve been prioritizing self care as I have. But, I just don’t have much else to say at the moment. I am hoping to have some time tomorrow or Saturday to really get some writing in. Ayahuasca, Part 5 was difficult to write and took a lot out of me.

That being said, last night I got to spend some time “in the circle” with some amazing, kind, big hearted, vibrant women, welcoming the change of the season. It was such a beautiful night. I am so thankful for Spring and starting over, as we do every year.