The more a thing tends to be permanent, the more it tends to be lifeless.
I love Alan Watts, don’t you?
Today was so surprisingly synchronistic. I didn’t look at my Zen Thought until just now… but it was right on the mark.
My career is project based. I move from project to project, client to client, as needed. Sometimes I have 1 big project and sometimes I have many small ones. Now, I have many small ones. It is a lot of juggling and going back and forth. I am not really the best at this and it takes a lot of effort on my part to stay on task and keep things straight in my mind. I have weekly and biweekly conference calls and meetings and have to be prepared to answer to much more important people than myself at the drop of a hat. It can really be a lot.
Today, I was in the main office, rather than my home office where I work 90% of the time, and we were discussing the possible office relocation that has come up. That of course lead to talking about relocating ourselves. I have a large territory that I cover and I try to stay centrally located, but now, I’m kind of not. So, I am considering what it would take to move closer to the office when it moves.
It would take a lot. I’ve lived in this house longer than I’ve lived anywhere in my whole life. Ten long years. And, I’ve only just made it my own (rather than jointly mine with my ex) so it’s a little sad and scary to consider moving.
One of my coworkers said, “I need to scale down. I have way too much stuff considering how transient and temporary I always am.”
“Transient and temporary. We are all that, that is the nature of existence,” I said.
Another of my coworkers groaned. “Way too deep. Way too deep. Let’s talk about something easier, like baseball.”
I laughed. But, it’s true. We all accumulate so much, too much, for a life that is transient and temporary.
The things that seem timeless and permanent also seem lifeless and dead. Monoliths, mountains, planets, and stars. They seem unchanging in our short lifespans.
I am glad things change, even though change is so hard sometimes. It helps me.grow beyond who I think I am and what I think I can do or handle.